to the girl i used to be.

to the girl i used to be...

you loved too much and gave your heart too quickly

to shaking hands and trembling souls

you cracked yourself open and emptied yourself dry

simply to fill other people up

you felt the weight of the world

and crumbled under its strength

you suppressed the lessons

and ignored the blessings

you doubted your intuition

and forgot all that you knew

your mind became deaf to your heart

and blind to your soul

you deprived your body of love

and of the nutrition it deserved

you lost more than weight

you lost yourself

you lost the innocent child that once resided

the part of yourself that would play and love

unconditionally and without reason

when simply being in the world was enough

when simply living was beauty in itself

you lost that part of yourself

but despite it all

you rose

from a pile of rubble

you got up

on aching legs

and a broken spirit

and rose higher than you ever could've imagined

you reignited the flame that burnt within your soul

you reawakened your inner child

the part of yourself that saw the world through a vale of love

through eyes that sparkled

like the sun on the water's surface

that saw butterflies as fairies hiding in plain sight

and animals as equal beings full of love

you remembered what it felt like to love

to feel your heart so full it could burst

to play and run and swim and dance and sing and create

you bought back all the parts of yourself you had forgotten

all the parts you left behind

and not only did you bring them back

you bloomed

you bloomed wildflowers from your scars

and love filled you like never before

all the things you loved about life

grew bigger and more beautiful than ever before

your voice was stronger, more confident

your soul soften and more gentle

your heart more full and overflowing

your eyes sparkled a little bit more

your cheeks, a tad more colour in them

you danced more freely then before

you loved fiercer, more deeply and with less fear

the world was becoming more and more beautiful

as you became more and more grateful

and you remembered, once again,

what falling in love felt like

you fell in love with yourself in a way you'd never experienced

you fell in love with others to a point beyond your wildest dreams

you, finally, fell back in love with being alive.

so to the girl i used to be...

thankyou for getting back up,

cause look at you now